Prov 3 5

On Loving Spoilers

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding” – Proverbs 3: 5

Between office work and trying to live my “why”, I always find time to watch series. This was always my entire weekend, being a hermit until lately. I did some calculations – If one episode is 56 minutes and I watch 5 episodes, I would have been staring at my screen for about 5 hours. In my defense, I have perfect eyes, but it’s the thought that when I was done watched 5 hours of TV I would have wasted 5 hours of my life watching something that wasn’t entirely helpful to me. So I learned to limit it to just a handful (except based on recommendation) – Game of Thrones, Person of Interest, Narcos and occasionally Scandal.


Now here’s the thing with Game of Thrones: It’s only ten episodes per season, and it’s only one season a year. In April. And it’s only 10 episodes every year. Obviously I don’t have HBO so I have to wait to download from the Internet. Sometimes, with my work load and other commitments, including sleep, I have to wait for a few weeks so I can watch in “omnibus” mode.


But the wait.

I hate not being in the know, so unlike the other humans who threaten to shoot another person for sharing spoilers online, I intentionally go hunting for spoilers. I like to know who dies next, and  what happens in King’s Landing and pretty much everything, before I watch. No surprises. Can’t blame a girl. There’s too much blood and gore, as if real life wasn’t hard enough.


And it’s the same thing with real life for me. I like to have all the answers. I like to know the end from the beginning. What will happen 3 years from now if I make this decision? Are the statistics in my favour? Will this be a smart move a few years from now? If it doesn’t seem like I’ll get what I want, I don’t attempt. I don’t touch what I can’t grab. I don’t take unnecessary risks. I’m heavily guarded and I like to stay that way.


Thing is, with life, you can’t know it all. I always wish I could google projections or maybe just straight up ask God to tell me what He knows. But I think that’s where faith comes in. It’s in blindly trusting and following God, knowing that His plans are always good. So I don’t know who I will marry, or how many kids I’ll have and all the other details. But I think that knowing God is enough is all I ever need to know.

Just enough light for the step I’m on.


“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.”

Jesus feels us

On Why We Stand

Originally posted in September 2015


“Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.”- Eph 6:13


We stand, even though our hearts are breaking, because God is good and everything that He does is good. And even though we may not see it, He means everything for good.

We stand because we know that if God be for us, no one can be against us. Because we know that nothing can separate us from the love of Christ. Because we know that all things work together for good for them that love God and are called according to His purpose.

We stand because we know that it is for times as this that we are men and women of faith. We know that our Redeemer lives and He will take His stand on the earth. And after this body has decayed, yet in our flesh we will see God.

We stand because we know that nothing can separate us from God’s love, NOTHING. And because we know that in all of these things, we are more than conquerors. We stand because we know that earth has no sorrow that heaven cannot heal. Because we know that there is a hereafter and our hope shall not be cut short.

We stand because the God of Jacob is our ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. We are still, because we know that our God is sovereign, He will be exalted in all the earth.

We stand because we know that we have the Holy Spirit with us, to comfort us. Because we know that Jesus felt what we are feeling, didn’t He also weep for Lazarus before He raised him? We stand because You will not abandon us to the realm of the dead. We stand because we know that this is a process- the mortal body must put on immortality and Death is swallowed up in victory. Because we know that our light affliction works for us more exceedingly an eternal weight of glory.

We stand because You O Lord are unquestionable. Shall the potsherd ask the potter what He has made? We know that You will wipe away every tear from our eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or sorrow or pain, for the old older of things has passed away.

“Sing, O heavens; and be joyful, O earth; and break forth into singing, O mountains: for Jehovah hath comforted His people, and will have compassion upon his afflicted”.